28 October 2011

Well I haven't had the happiest week this week.

I mean life-wise it has been fine, but I have been financially strained and my weigh-in didn't go so well.

I haven't gained! ... but it could have been more significant.

I woke up late on Wednesday and rushed off to work without even thinking about weighing, so that had to wait until Thursday. And Thursday showed I'd lost the HUGE amount of ... wait for it... 300g. Seriously, 300g.

I am now 94.7kgs. I'm happy it's a loss - I would have been devastated if I'd gained - but I'm still very sad that it wasn't more. I thought when you were already heavier, that the weight comes off easier?

I think TOM might be on its way...

Exercise:
Monday - bootcamp style class
Thursday - kinesis resistance training

Monday eats:
Protein drink
Taco mix with salad and sour cream
Leek and parsnip soup

Tuesday eats:
Protein drink
Taco mix with salad and sour cream
Glass of wine

(did some public speaking after work tonight so too nervous to eat anything)

Wednesday eats:
Protein drink
Moussaka
Small amount of taco mince with salad

Thursday eats:
Protein drink
Prawn and coconut curry
lc Shepherd's pie

Today's eats:
Protein drink
Prawn and coconut curry
Chicken kebab (very below average, I wont be going there again)

Looking forward to holidays

Still chugging along today. I'm very excited about my upcoming (well over a month away) holidays though. I woke up this morning with the feeling it was the end of November and I was really excited, but then I realised it's only the end of October. Lol, how bazarre.

I'm trying my best to stay nice and clean with my eating at the moment, given the breading on the chicken on saturday and the past few weekends as well.

On the good side, I went to the gym today and had to tuck my t-shirt into my pants because of the mountain climbers... I think I'm starting to look passable with a tucked in t-shirt! I still have a tummy of course, but my rolls are reducing and smoothing and not so bumpy. :)

Exercise:
Bootcamp style class

Today I ate:
1/2 protein drink
Taco mince with cheese, sour cream and capsicum
1/2 protein drink

Catch Up

OK so I'm doing it again - a blog post to catch up on a few days at a time. It's been an awesome past few days!

I've had people over or gone out every day since Thursday and it's been fun!

Unfortunately on Saturday my choice of dinner was to choose food from the pizza pasta restaurant, or eat by myself while everyone else was visiting for dinner. So I didn't opt for the latter option.

Steaks etc were out, so my only option was to get "chicken kickers" which are spicy chicken nuggets with sauce. Fortunately they are only lightly coated, not battered like standard chicken nuggets, and the sauce is ranch which hopefully is less carby than some other common sauces like BBQ. I did my best anyway.


Thursday I ate:
Protein drink
Moussaka
Egg scramble with onion & tomato

Friday I ate:
Protein drink
Moussaka
Indian - mix of Rogan Josh, Tika Masala and Chilli Chicken, and about 1/2 cup of saffron rice

Saturday I ate:
Leek and parsnip soup
Chicken kickers (lightly coated chicken spicy and dipped in ranch dressing) - Dominoes

Today I ate:
Egg scramble with onion, zucchini and sour cream
Taco mince with capsicum, cheese and sour cream
Strawberry milkshake - I used full cream milk (small glass), heavy cream and SF strawberry topping

Weigh In Day

OK so I was pleasantly surprised this morning to find that I come in at 90.0kgs... that's a LOSS of 500g! I seriously didn't expect that.

Initially I thought the 90.1 (when it was flashing around before the number settles on the screen) was a 90.7 and my heart sank, but I thought "that's about right, I've done this" but then it was good news!!

I could have lost more this week though. Clearly. But, what is done is done.

I'm really happy about today's news and thank you for letting me share it with you (the cosmosphere hehe)

Exercise:
Yoga

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Moussaka - it was gooood!
More moussaka

Need to get cooking

So I need to get cooking again. I went into my freezer to choose a meal for lunch this morning and had only one container left! So shepherd's pie it was!

I've been looking online, thinking of making an lc moussaka. MmmmmmMMMmmmmMmmmm

EDIT: I made the moussaka. I got a little stuck when the recipe said I needed to cover the eggplant slices in flour, so I covered them in protein powder instead. Hhahahaha no idea how that is going to turn out but I look forward to finding out!

Tomorrow is weigh in day.

Other weeks I have been very excited by this. Not this time. I wonder how much damage the weekend has done? :(

Exercise:
Nil

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Shepherd's pie - 2 serves, one at lunch and one at home
2 tsp cream

Trying to work on my resolve

So after a few days with dumb, avoidable things going on, I'm trying to strengthen my resolve. If I don't I'll end up not changing anything and that's absolutely not what I want.

Exercise:
Circuit at gym

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Sausage stroganoff
Sliced tuna with cheese

OK What's Going On?!

OK so today started off well with a normal lc breakfast, but went off track a bit with the meal provided at the function I went to during the day.

Fortunately it was European, so the offerings were sauerkraut, sausages, gerkins and sour rye bread. But what oh why did I choose to have and eat the bread?

I know I'm completely in love with this kind of bread. But still, it's loaded with carbs. And with the last two days of imperfect eating, why???

And a few times I even had "forget about it, just have the cakes" .. there were cakes provided.

My resolve is slipping. :(

What is wrong and how do I get it back??

Today I ate:
Shepherd's pie - most of the bowl
Sauerkraut, two sausages, gerkins and a slice of sour rye bread
Rest of shepherd's pie

Another carby day

So today started off okay with my lc shepherd's pie for breakfast, but it went slightly downhill from there.

I went for my mani/pedi and didn't have enough time between that and going to a show with friends, to get home for another meal. So we ate out. Tried the cafes but their kitchens were closing. I had a choice between Hungry Jack's and coffee and cake.

I went with Hungry Jack's. I ordered a hamburger meal with diet Coke and gave the chips away. So I ended up with all of the carbs from the roll of the hamburger. Seriously not the most ideal thing, and I could have eaten around the roll, but it was what it was.

So yet another carby day :(

Today I ate:
Shepherd's pie
Bacon deluxe burger, diet coke
Coke Zero (felt sick after this much aspartame I tipped most of it down the toilet)

Carby day

Another pretty good day today. I wasn't particularly focused on anything that I was supposed to do, I'm completely in holiday-mode.

I know I know I don't go away for another 7 weeks but I'm so ready already.

I also can't stop spending money. Somebody stop me! All the Christmas specials are out and I need to get my Christmas shopping done before my holiday (not that much of what I have bought so far is for anyone but me)...

Anyway, on the weight loss side. My pants are getting looser, they are actually hanging a bit lower on my hips, which also means they are hanging closer to the ground. I'm having to lift them off the floor sometimes. It's good though!

Yesterday was a bit of a carby day. That means I'm absolutely expecting (and prepared!) for the onslaught of carb thoughts and cravings over the next couple of days. Damn. Well, it's part of life, right? There is simply no reason I can't be stubborn and out-wait those cravings. I can do it!

Exercise:
Kinesis

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Chicken wrap - chicken (no stuffing), lettuce, tomato, onion, mayo in a wheat wrap - I tried to eat around the wrap at the top and the bottom but I ate the middle
Enchiladas - again I tried to eat around the corn wraps but I did end up eating most of it

Sorry everyone!

So sorry I've missed a couple of days in my posts, I've been sooooo busy!!

So, the news!

Well the only exciting thing really is that I have lost weight (yay!!) and I'm distracting myself from the hum-drum of things in my life that I can't change at the moment, by focusing on the possibility of becoming a nail tech. I don't know why I didn't think about doing this sooner. I've always experimented with different nail designs (no, not thick acrylic nails with animal print, I'm a little more subdued than that) ... so here goes!

I've got all the info I need on the introductory course and I will be signing up at the start of next year. In the mean time I will practice with some basics like filing etc.

Exciting!

And my weight? Well I slept in yesterday and dashed out the door to work so I didn't weigh in until this morning.... *drum roll* .... 95.6kgs!! Down 900g!

Originally I was 95.8kgs but I wasn't happy with that so a quick trip to the loo (only number ones lol) and it was down. I'm happy.

Exercise:
Tues - None
Wed - Gymstick
Thur - None

I ate:
Tues - Protein drink, sausage stroganoff, cooked onion, tomato and egg scramble, 2 tsp cream
Wed - 1/2 Protein drink, cream of mushroom soup, grilled cheese on salami
Thur - Bacon, eggs, tomato and sauted mushrooms (not homemade), chicken & prawn curry

Today flew!

Wow today just went so fast! No idea where it went!

One weird thing today though, I got a craving for cooked onion. Now I do often experience cravings. I just stay strong and eat something else - something close but not the same. Like if I am craving sweet I will have sweetened tea or a ready-to-drink protein drink. But cooked onion? That's a new one lol

Exercise:
Bootcamp-style class with vibra-train machine

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Sausage stroganoff
Cream & ABC spread
Two eggs with half a tomato and that cooked onion I was craving

Catch up

Wow I am so tired tonight and I didn't realise I hadn't updated since Thursday.

So here are the stats then I'm going to SLEEEEEEEP

Friday:
Protein drink
Chicken and mushroom curry
Tandoori chicken with cabbage (ate at restaurant)

Saturday:
Bacon and eggs
Smoked salmon with cream cheese
Shepherd's pie

Sunday:
Shepherd's pie
Caesar salad with chicken sans croutons

First signs!

Today I am excited to report that I have seen the first signs of my weight loss!

I was walking about of the loo and I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror on the way out - so from my side view. I had to stop and take a second look, that's no me is it?! But it was!

SO VERY EXCITED RIGHT NOW!

Thanks for sharing this with me so far. It's on and forward from here!

Exercise:
Boxing

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Tuna curry lasagne (replacement noodle sheets of course)
Salad with ranch dressing

Following my heart

I still have the same feeling I did yesterday, about not doing with I am "supposed" to be doing.

I'm not living my life the way it should be lived. I'm not honouring what I know is right for myself.

So here are a few ideas off the top of my head (this list changes frequently), of what I should be doing with my life:
Studying more for a better job
Losing weight (though this is in progress)
Having a child
Getting married
Living in a house I own
Possibly becoming a bio sculpture nail person
Being a teacher of some sort
Living in a suburb that nourishes me

... I am supposed to be a teacher ... I am ... Of what? Where? How? Teaching has always scared me, but I think that's because I thought that job was always resigned to the school system. But it's not, education comes in many shapes and sizes... I need to look into this...

OMG I almost forgot the most exciting thing to report - it's Wednesday! Well, not just that, but it's weigh in day! I am down another 400g so my current weight is 96.5kg. It's not a huge loss, but I'm keeping myself in gear by reminding myself that a loss is a loss. I am still holding less fat on me now, than I did this time last week. Yay!

Exercise:
Yoga

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Zucchini pesto sausage bake
Egg and veggie scramble

Potential

I don't know why, but I've had a feeling all day (and for a few years now truth be told) that I'm not living up to my potential.

I feel like I could be doing so much more than I am. I could be studying extra, seeing more friends, spending time doing my hair, I could have not gained this dumb weight in the first place, and the list goes on.

I truly feel it. I think I feel it more when I return home from the city (I don't go into the city too often these days, maybe once or twice a month)...

So the fact that I have to lose weight is a truth that I don't like. I have to keep at this in order to change it to the way it's supposed to be (which is me not overweight) but I'm annoyed that it isn't done already.

On a brighter note, tomorrow is weigh in morning so I'm hoping for a good result. Exercise has been lacking this week but I don't believe exercise is necessary for fat loss, only necessary for overall health. So I'm hoping that wont slow me down.

Exercise:
None

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Chicken & prawn curry
Egg and veggie scramble - cabbage, zucchini, tomato and spring onion.

Sick AGAIN today

Well I was sick AGAIN today. My denial helped me get through the day at work ok, but on my way home I was feeling very ordinary. I had a small bite to eat, got changed and went to the gym. I walked in the door, said hello I'm sorry but I'm sick today, turned around and went home.

I did turn up to the gym 10mins early to try to psych myself up, but it wasn't happening.

It's TOM at the moment, and has been since Friday, but I'm usually not really affected by it.

The stomach ache I had today was higher that TOM pains anyway. It was definitely in the stomach area. :(

I hate being sick.

And now I'm about to go to bed and hopefully get to work tomorrow morning as well... fingers crossed!

Exercise:
None

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Chicken & prawn curry
Celery sticks with ABC nut spread

Dinner Club?

Had a nice day today, went out for lunch with a friend and a catch up.

My housemate is thinking of starting up a Dinner Club - where a group of us take turns to host a dinner party for eachother. I'm a bit worried about their food selections because it doesn't occur to the far majority of people, to have a grain-free version of whatever they are serving. Like say they are serving noodles, it's hard to ask for them to be on the side. What would one eat?

We'll see. I like the idea but I have no idea how it would work...

Exercise:
None

Today I ate:
Ham, mushroom & tomato omelette.
100g smoked salmon with cream cheese
Two spoonfuls of cream

Cravings

I am still experiencing cravings. They aren't so strong I can't overcome them. But they are still there. They are a mixture of physical cravings and just habitual cravings.

I'm a little bit worried that I haven't replaced my habits-no-longer with a substitute habit. Is it really necessary? For instance, I get into the car and on long drives, or after work on the way home, I would have a little something. But I'm simply not having that now.

Insanely I am still grabbing my bag at a red light and automatically searching through it for something to nibble on. Of course there is nothing in there though. So instead I have some water from my water bottle.

It keeps my hands busy, but doesn't solve the issue that I really want to snack on something. I'm usually hungry after work because I haven't eaten in 4-5hours, and I want something so I'm not famished when I get home. Famished = grabbing the first thing I can and not being able to make a good meal and eating it slowly so it can be savoured.

I like being able to savour my food though. I really don't enjoy shoveling food into my mouth because I'm starving. So I have something to help me...

Exercise:
None

Today I ate:
Shepherd's pie x 2